[attr="class","theplot"]CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT QUESTION #2
Is there a person in your life you fear you'll never make proud? Who are they? Why do you want them to be proud of you? Has there ever been a moment in your life where you thought they were ashamed of you? Do you love this person unconditionally or do you resent them? What made them a force in your life to begin with? Would you feel freed by their passing or would you still carry the desire to fit a mould?
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Post by Jasper Oliver Scamander on Jun 25, 2021 22:18:40 GMT
[attr="class","main"]I'm scared I'll never make my dad proud. Sounds dumb af I know. Like, my dad could be proud of idk the wind blowing or something - the man legit praises me for breathing some days so I don't get why I worry about it so much but when you put me next to Aubre and Ki and even Jack (who to be honest we're on the same wavelength - haha music joke pun pls someone appreciate my jokes - I still feel like I have less to be proud of? Like maybe it's because of this circulated mental health stigma that once you're mentally ill your inherently worth less? Probably internalised judgment there on my bit but... yeah. Why would he be proud of me when my achievements don't and couldn't ever match any of my siblings? I can't really idk think of a moment where Dad was ashamed of me but I know his heart broke when I told him about Ives. That was awful :/ I used to want to fit the mould I thought he wanted me to fit but I don't anymore. He loves me for me and I can see that even if my head is saying other shit? He doesn't want me to be Ki and that's important, I think. I just think he's too good to be my dad, like, I could've had the shittiest dad in the fucking world but no I got the most idk, even with the Mer shit back in school i know now he only did that to protect my dumb ass? I wish he was a little more forward and stopped trying to kiss ass but yeah XD He's too good to me but I love him. I just want to make him proud because he's my dad and I care what he thinks. n.n