[attr="class","theplot"]CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT QUESTION #1
If you could have any one wish granted for yourself what would it be? Not for ANYONE else. Like you can't wish that Ki had never lost Maddi UNLESS YOU'RE KI xD Can't wish for world peace. Something just for you. Anything at all. With no consequences or strings attached outside the normal. No one would ever know what you wished for so you could be as selfish as humanly possible if that's what you wanted. What's your wish?
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Post by EMMETT MONTILYÉT on Jun 25, 2021 14:17:59 GMT
It's frivolous to consider the consquence of an impossible instance. Change, however minute, births the responsibility for countless unwelcomed alternative futures. There is no way to confirm - with absolute certainy - within the parameters previously stated - should I wish for my actions to assure perfectly optimised results for myself that negate any chance of negative repercussion - would fix the isses I am to raise. I'm not a philosophical man, but if I were to be would I say that removing Ambriella from my life entirely would have secured my happiness? - or would I simply have found myself on a different path with demons of different suits. Would I have found Alilah? Would Theodore have been my own? Would that have compromised Freydis' happiness or would she have found it in another as result of what I can only hope to have been a joyful upbringing in Rosethorn - one which she was stolen at Ambriella and Elisaveta's hand. In addition, what if I were to remove Elisaveta? Would Ambriella have found another to throw in my path? If the wish is to be an entirely selfish one - one entirely selfish and not one meant to bring me passive happiness - such as having Sixten in perfect health from birth, for example - then the decision becomes an exceedingly difficult one. If I were to choose a wish that was to be entirely selfish, and entirely my own, a direct gift to myself alone, then it would have been to have been born to Iceland. From the start. Wars would cease to rage in my mind and even less so in my heart. I would not have myself torn between László obligation and the freedom of 'heathenistic' halls. I don't appreciate the tormented life lessons forced upon me and would remove them without second thought. Sentiment for my family aside for I would not hold such predilections if I were not born to them. Alilah will always be my true North - my path in this life and every life as I've come to learn. No matter my origin she paint my final words. Any chance to have found her sooner and remove the aches caused would be welcomed. I'd trade the world for that.
[attr="class","main1"]Honestly, I've thought about this quite a bit since you asked. What would I even want for myself? To wish that I never met Clay? To wish I had never lost my father? The logical wish would be to go back to my time, wouldn't it? I think .. maybe- .. No, I know that my wish would be something the would benefit me but also everyone else. I'd wish that I hadn't ever been born. The selfish reason for this is just to avoid all of the other things I maybe should be wishing for. The things I've experienced in this life were all things that weren't worth experiencing. My life has literally been a cycle of the worst since I was ten and I just, you know honestly, I want off this fucking rollercoaster sometimes. Clay? Never met him. Dad? Will have less of a burden on him at such a young age, maybe that will help him be well for Ali and everyone else that needs him. I mean really.. What use has my existence been on the planet except for Grandpa Max and well .. if he doesn't lose my dad then .. everything changes anyway. He can't miss what he never had and maybe everything would be okay just for a little while. I'm tired of being what holds everyone together and the longer I'm here the more I hurt. Don't get me wrong - I would never kill myself. How could I? But if I had the option to have just .. never been in the first place .. don't think I wouldn't take it.
Post by Azrael J. Scamander on Jun 25, 2021 15:56:53 GMT
[attr="class","main1"]There's so many things about my life that I wish I could change. We could get into the logistics of what change might do to the rest of the world or pretend this is some sort of a trick question to fuck our lives up ever more than they already are but I'm going to take it for what it is. If I could wish for anything to happen to me, I would wish that I had been the one kidnapped and not Max. I know, we aren't supposed to wish for things that would benefit other people and this sure as shit sounds like a wish for Max's life but it isn't. Well, I would be a liar if I said it wouldn't benefit him but the loophole in there is that it would benefit me just as much. A two for one? Look, there's no changing who I became in life. Hell, I wouldn't change it even if I could. If I have any regrets now it's that I didn't stand by who I was even if that same person didn't exactly fall into the category of what you'd consider a good parent. I did what I did for my son and I lost a lot of me in the process. So many people can play both roles, good and bad, and still come out on top but not me right? I tried to be one thing or the other and I'd say a lot of my life turned complacent. Bree's too and fuck if I didn't lose her too. Probably for the same exact reason. Complacency. It was never what I wanted and to be honest if I had been stolen instead of Max I'd have far less resolve to be on the right side of the law. I'd be a little more driven to fight in these ridiculous blood wars. Fuck-I may have been able to make a difference at some point. Stopped a brother (Emmett) from falling in line with Elisaveta or even prevented the bitch from rising in ranks in the Aurors. Certainly, Max would have never lost Circe or even Jasper. I'd be more like my father. The entire future would be shaped differently. Better. If not for Max, if not for the world, then at least for me and mine. The power I had then and that which rests with me now is .. I wish I had kept it through the years. So, yeah, more resolve in the form of being the one kidnapped .. not Max.
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Post by Freydis Arsenisdottir Peverell on Jun 25, 2021 16:13:31 GMT
[attr="class","main"]I wish I had never given up on my dreams. Meredith, people grow up and their dreams change as they mature. Isn't that what life's all about? The little girl dreaming about being the prima ballerina or perhaps the one that wants to be a vet will all just end up in the same dead ass jobs as the rest of us, yeah? So why bother to dream once you hit early adulthood and you realize the ability to reach your dreams is a fucking illusion that poor parents want their children to believe in like somehow hard work and studying right will get them out of the shithole they've been raised in. I get it. Everyone wants better for their kids. I was just as stupid for thinking I could follow a music career. I worked my ass off for it and even when I gave up I worked just as hard for my career in law enforcement. I worked FOREVER just for people to convince me my role was somewhere else. Don't get me wrong I love Theo and I'm thrilled to be having children it .. it really does mean the world to me but .. somewhere along the way I let someone tell me music wasn't the answer. It wasn't proper. Law enforcement was dangerous and they're too worried about me. Somewhere on this journey I stopped caring about what I wanted and started listening to what everyone else wanted. I'm incredibly grateful for what I have in life and I would never change where I've come from and the struggles I've had to endure. It makes me proud to know I'm viewed as one of the most mature and sensible girls of my generation despite my rocky start to life. I'm overjoyed to make my parents proud. I just wish .. sometimes .. I never lost that spark. The fight. Where's the girl that did rap battles on the weekend while studying for the triwzard tournament? What happened to spending hours up at night trying to figure out a case before my father could? I didn't spend seven years of my life dedicating myself to combat and law to be at home in Russia playing a part for Ambriella .. and still not be good enough. Where's the me that never would have stuck around and let Joe pretend to love me? I'm not complaining just sometimes .. I miss the old me. Well, parts of the old me. The dreamer. :/
Post by Ashley Ravelan László on Jun 25, 2021 16:34:50 GMT
Dev #1 ▪ some words
uite obviously if given the chance to wish for anything in the world I would wish that my son were never stolen from me. That doesn't exactly fit within the parameters of the question so I'm going to go a step further and say I wish I had never fathered Theodore. I love my son to the ends of the galaxy and back again but I can't erase the circumstance of his birth, all of which I personally take accountability for. Had I been a stronger or wiser teen perhaps it would never have happened. Theodore deserved a life free of conflict and filled with unconditional love. One I feel I failed to provide between Emmett and Charlotte. I also rather detest the idea that any of my children aren't Charlotte's but that's never anything I would take out on Theodore. I can't take back the consequences it had on my brother's mental health or Alilah's. It has to be the one decision in my life that I regret with everything that I am. I would, perhaps, be a better Laszlo for it. Russia would be better for it. Everyone would be better for it. I would not carry this guilt nor regret and perhaps I would be far closer to my brother. Perhaps I would even still have Demyan. I would be colder as a person. Less compromising because fuck knows I learned that through having to be friendly with Alilah. The world would be so different. Elisaveta could have never touched my family. Likely, I would have never lost charlotte either. I would have never felt the need to be at that gala that night. Laszlo have nothing to prove. Yet, with Theodore to account for socially, of course I had to be there. As I said .. I would change nothing about my life. I adore my son like no other. This question was simply a design to ask about the far reaches of our guilty mind be the guilt of shame or lust or perhaps even pride- now you know where my guilt lays.
Post by Feodor Ashur Romanov on Jun 25, 2021 17:11:32 GMT
Dev #1 ▪ some words
want to be more than just a... contract. To be the fibre that hangs on desperately as Emmett apart every seam. I want to be more than just... the physical manifestation of my Grandmother's cruelty and malice. To say I'm not loved would be... insulting to parents to say the least, but, I'll never quite be enough. I've always felt it. I've always seen it. I've seen it in the way she looks at my brothers and sisters with a brightness that dims the moment she turns to me. Because I'm half of someone she despises and not the person she adores - the person I honestly, and completely believe she'd choose over all those who adore her. It's as if she rejoyces in shadow of Ambriella's puppetry. I want her to be happy - of course I do - but at what point does happiness become devoted sickness? How can she greet every sunrise and forgive him for what he's done? To everyone she loves? To me? Though I suppose it makes sense when I was made as nothing but a token or... currency. I was made so Emmett could have his way and now I stand in the shadow of Emmett's failures with a grandmother that is determined to ruin the happiness of the woman I love; in the shadows of an uncle who cares nothing for me or my inevitable ruin; in the shadow of a mother that will always choose her prized children above all else and perhaps toss those away in favour of a man who cares little for anything - if at all- beyond his own arrogant thoughts; Even father looks to Demyan with a pride he's never bestowed upon me. I hate being half a whole; I live as a reminder that I'll never be good enough in the eyes of our peers due to my bastard name and never quite good enough to be a László. Did they all forget that while my mother was labelled for being a heathen so was I? How many nights I told my siblings how wrong the slights of strangers were. How they'd pay. I can't say it was easy for them. It musn't have been but they could return home to Iceland and hide away from Ambriella's eyes. I couldn't. I never could. I don't think if I were to follow the same path as my Uncle I would be for praised. I don't think I'd be forgiven.
So if I had to summarise I'd say that... I wish I'd never been born. I wish I felt secure with those I care about. I just... don't. I suppose honesty is the best policy when nothing hangs on the line. It's just an impossible wish after all. I wish I knew a way to reach the same conclusion but... I can't find one.
Post by ADRIEL RUTHERFORD on Jun 25, 2021 21:50:23 GMT
[attr="class","main"]What would I wish for? Honestly I... I don't know. Even as I write this response I... can't find a clear- or even make out a clear vision of what I would wish for. Where would I start? Wish that Circe wasn't torn from me in the first place? After all that established the base for every hurt that followed. Jasper was taken which... I account as some sort of added punishment at the hands of Ambriella but I'd never wish my children away even if it removed the hurt they felt/feel. I could never. I suppose I could wish to have never met her. That would have prevented so... so much heartache. For her mostly... I could always forget again I'm sure at least one person would love to take the job. I could wish that I'd just... remained lost. I'm as lost now as I was then except now the world falls upon my shoulders and I have children who look to me for guidance which I can't give, and those that don't talk to me like they used to sit in silence. I can't help any of them anymore. I don't I never could. Wish that I wasn't stolen? Maybe. Maybe I should wish for things to make sense or have some unrivalled power in the world - would that fix things? Make the pain go away? That seems to be what secures happiness in this world - fear and violence. Two things I've never had the look or personally to pass off. I'm not my brother and I'm... really... really not Emmett.
I could wish to be cruel. Maybe then it'd hurt a little less. Maybe then I wouldn't care. Maybe then all of my wants and dreams would fall into my lap without effort like they do others. Wishing people back into my life and wishing all the hurts in the world away doesn't exactly fit into the restrictions of the question, and even then I doubt Ambriella would allow us a moment before tearing children from the arms of their parents. I can't do that again. So I'd wish... I suppose that I didn't care anymore. It'd be so much better than begging every breath is my last.
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Post by Jasper Oliver Scamander on Jun 25, 2021 22:04:10 GMT
[attr="class","main"]I actually... kinda like where my life is at right now. I'm not wanting to kill myself 24/7 which is better than nothing, right? Hell there's shit I've not dealt with yet but I'm getting to it. In a healthy way apparently haha... there's a ton of things I'd wish for other people. Maybe that Ivy hadn't been taken away from Emmett and Alilah or even Meredith or maybe I don't know- I don't know? What COULDN'T I wish for tbh? I've wished to be dead like a thousand times over and some days I still feel that shitty sinking feeling but I don't wanna die anymore? Maybe I'd just wish for something quiet. To be left alone but... then I don't think Siri would want that either. Wishing for, like, to not have been taken may have made my life easier but then would I have connected with people like I do now? Sometimes it feels like I really don't want to be me but I want to be me if its the person those I care about want in their lives. I only love the me they do? Not that there's anything wrong with that I don't... think. I don't think anything I could wish for would fix anything other than maybe wishing for everyone back (the dead people, I mean- Ivy's happy and that's enough for me). We're all living fake lives really, right? Either wish everyone back or if that's too selfless of a wish then I'd wish that I wasn't sick. I wish I was just.... happier. I wish my brain wasn't broken. Wish the trauma away, I guess. I'm really moving forward in terms of mental health shit but I wish I didn't have this giant weight attached to my ankle all the time, you know? It'd be easier on everyone if I didn't blip out every so often and people didn't worry about me yeeting myself off the nearest bridge.